Moody

So I've been taking tamoxifen for about 10 days.Last few weeks I've been feeling pretty zippy and good, have been walking the dog and gardening and felt more energetic.This week I feel like I've been hit by a bus! Really fatigued,I could just put my head down on my desk at work and sleep.....if only the bloody phone would stop ringing! I'm feeling really grumpy, I just want to rip people's arms off and slap em with the wet bits. My joints have been really painful too, especially in my back, hips and knees. Now I'm not sure if this is everything catching up with me, the side effects of tamoxifen or it's my osteo arthritis or auto immune disease kicking in... Hey take your pick, maybe I'm just turning into a grouchy old bag! It's really not good at work though, especially when I'm dealing with the public. I find myself having to bite my tongue to stop the thoughts coming out my mouth I don't think " and.....what do you want me to do about it?" would go down too well. Nor would would the fact that my eyes roll into the back of my head and I repeatedly slap my hand over my eyes in frustration and impatience as I deal with people's questions. It's not the people on the phones fault, and the sensible part of me knows that, unfortunately the nutty psycho part of my brain isn't having any of it! I actually had to stop and ask myself what was going on with me. I'm not normally like this and I went working through chemo and op pretty much as my normal self, trying to be helpful and patient. It's like I have serious PMT, god help my husband and daughter having to live with me. I really hope it sorts itself out!