Mixed Feelings from Surgeon Review
I had an appointment with my surgeon yesterday - the first since finishing active treatment. I went in knowing it was just a review and I had my usual list of questions with me. I'm not really sure ...
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Hey @Sister.
The whole thing is just a state of continuing confusion isn't it? You find out things you hadn't really heard at the start or had bigger things to worry about at the time and it just starts the ball rolling again. There appears to be no end to the anxiety and worry.
The concern that the machines don't pick things up is disconcerting as well. You're always thinking "what if it missed something".
You will probably know that I had 4 or 5 (can't remember) mammograms and a few ultrasounds at the beginning and not one of them could pick up the breast tumour without the MRI pinpointing where it was. Even then it just looked like a few little sparkly bits on the scans once they had the exact location to look. Without the node thing, I would never have felt it until it was too late I guess.
Reports are scary as you don't really know what everything means. I have taken to asking "Give me that in dumb terms please" lol. The good thing is that it may have been what it was but now it is gone and stomped into the floor.
Take some time until you feel a bit better before worrying about any other surgeries. Easier said than done I know.
Some days are just too foggy to think about those things.
Yay for getting the port out.
Lots of love.
xoxoxoxxo
The whole thing is just a state of continuing confusion isn't it? You find out things you hadn't really heard at the start or had bigger things to worry about at the time and it just starts the ball rolling again. There appears to be no end to the anxiety and worry.
The concern that the machines don't pick things up is disconcerting as well. You're always thinking "what if it missed something".
You will probably know that I had 4 or 5 (can't remember) mammograms and a few ultrasounds at the beginning and not one of them could pick up the breast tumour without the MRI pinpointing where it was. Even then it just looked like a few little sparkly bits on the scans once they had the exact location to look. Without the node thing, I would never have felt it until it was too late I guess.
Reports are scary as you don't really know what everything means. I have taken to asking "Give me that in dumb terms please" lol. The good thing is that it may have been what it was but now it is gone and stomped into the floor.
Take some time until you feel a bit better before worrying about any other surgeries. Easier said than done I know.
Some days are just too foggy to think about those things.
Yay for getting the port out.
Lots of love.
xoxoxoxxo