Lumpectomy removed healthy tissue and not the tumour

I am so sorry this happened to you @oseikka  :(   I watched a video of a hookwire being inserted & the following operation to remove the tumour & really find it hard to see how they could not 'find it' .... 
I fully understand your lost trust in the surgeon/radiologist.  They need to put YOU first and FIX IT xx  

Your range of emotions are totally normal and I am just so sad you've been put thru this.  xx I am glad you are going to be chatting with a Counsellor - you can also give our helpline a call on 1800 50 258 (Mon-Fri).   

Also, consider listening to Charlotte Tottman's Podcasts - she is a BC psychologist who was diagnosed in 2018 and had a double mastectomy & stayed flat.  She was surprised that the diagnosis hit her as hard as it did, as she'd been counseling women for YEARS on helping THEM get over the shock ...
This disease actually mucks more with your BRAIN than your body, I reckon!  So she really 'gets it', more than many others (who haven't experienced the diagnosis & treatment themselves.)  The podcast link is here:
https://soundcloud.com/search?q=charlotte tottman

Make sure you Click on 'view 22 tracks' and start with No 13 (which is the first episode of Series One - weird that they've put Series 2 'first'!)   They are really good to listen to, as she talks more as a BC survivor, not a Psychologist - and she is very easy to listen to!  She has been thru every emotion that we have xx