Low counts

It is odd you know....I work in this "industry" yet I an amazed by terminology that is used by medical staff and not explained..."we have to delay chemo because your counts are low"...mean what? I say. "If we give you another round of chemo and your white bood cell count drops lower then you get an infection it could be ilfe threatening because your body will not be able to fight it off". Ahh righto, now I get it. So that is where I am at. After having a horrific time of it after round two and then cruising through round 3, round 4 has been deferred....just when I was looking forward to it. Ha Ha...not. After psyching yourself up for another round of a drug you don't want you think I'd be relieved I don't have to have it, but instead I am annoyed, because it just delays the inevitable. And means another blood test. So sick of being a pin cushion. On the plus side, I had another CT and bone scan and there has been a reponse to the treatment so far. Encouraging, but still scares the hell out of me that I even have "bone spots" to begin with. I think my team were still holding hope that what had shown on the scans was not cancer, but something else. Unfortunately the response confirms that they are related to my cancer. Damn it. So in the mean time we are going away for easter. At least I will be well :) It will be nice to get out of the house and to have constant company for a few days. Hope you all can do something nice with friends or family over the easter period.