Karel01
9 years agoMember
Long journeys
I am finding that keeping up a "brave face" is wearing me down.. The continual blood tests, oncologists visit where I keep getting told my markers are increasing. Side effects from radiation and medi...
I have days I make the effort to look like I'm coping. I wear makeup, choose clothing carefully and coordinate my hat and scarf. Other days I just can't do it. I cry just figuring out which scarf to wear or if I can't tie it how I want. I can't be stuffed putting on makeup to conceal my sallow colour and dark rings. I can imagine a birthday just highlights the difficult journey we are on and in the back of our heads we are wondering how many more of these have we got. You don't have to be strong for others. Just do want you can for you. If its a bad day let it be just that. ..it will pass. Take care. Kath x