Loneliness

Tammy, I so "get" where you are at after 3 x FEC :-(. The thing that I found made it hard for me was that I was torn between allowing people to see how I really was or trying to remain "upbeat" so that I didn't worry them all too much - particularly the kids. I am now 2 weeks past my last weekly Taxol and 1 week past m first 3 weekly Herceptin. I think that if I didn't still have this pneumonitis affecting me I would be almost feeling normal. I think everyone in my family is wondering why I'm not back to being energetic - but I'm not. I used "balloons" as a way of explaining to people what chemo did to my energy levels. As a chemo patient I went from having an endless supply of energy "balloons" with the gas to fill them to being a chemo patient with just 8-10 energy "ballons" to use each day. I had to learn to use those balloons sparingly! 2 weeks out and I now have a few more balloons, maybe 15, but still not the endless supply that "normal" people have. Jenn