living with fear

Hi Hilary.  I'm not seeing my oncologist until 6 weeks after the first anniversay and no-one has made any mention of a mammogram nor of an ultrasound.  I know other women have mentioned this and I am wondering if it depends on the doctor or the hospital?  I'm just like you - any lump, bump or pain causes anxiety and I have to be honest, I too have been back to my GP - a painful lump behind my knee which, thankfully, was not related in any way to the primary tumour but rather, is a result of drug reaction.  I was sent for an xray and when the radiographer left the room, I became exremely agitated because it was the same as when the lump was found in my breast.  The poor woman had no idea what I was carrying on about!  I too have been told all these things will pass with time and I know I am extremely hard on myself and have quite unreasonable expectations.  You are right, this site is extraordinary and the support invaluable.  Please let me know how you get on - it appears we are sharing "anniversaries" even though they are ones we would prefer not to be having.  :)