living with fear

each of you for taking the time to reply and share your current situations with me.  The arthritis has been triggered by the second hormone therapy and I am now unable to have any hormone therapy.  Luckily, I had such a high level of chemo that, although the odds of recurrence are doubled, they are still (relatively) low.  You have each reminded me that I am certainly not alone in this continuing journey and I am very grateful.  Krill  oil it is, I can't take Panadol forever!  Tonya, your words are always wise and kind and I thank you for reminding me that it's early days yet - I know Im hard on myself and am trying to learn a different way.  Fiona and Joy, you are both right - I have learnt many strategies and I do have strong and valuable selling points to add to my cv.  I already notice that many things that annoyed me before all this just go over my head now - continue that mindset in the workplace and watch out world, here I come! xxxx