Hi Ne sometimes we all need to vent. I'm heading into 2nd year and I still struggle. I don't think people realise what our bodies go through. Everyone thinks oh wow you have finished active treatment, your hair is growing back and you should be grateful that you are still here. I have made the decision that I'm not telling people I'm ok any more when I feel like crap.
Yes I'm a survivour but the worry is always there and the side effects of all the treatment, they do not understand.. I have seen a consellour and I know this is not for everyone but it does me good to say out loud how I feel and not feel judged. Sending you a hug, hang in there I hope venting has helped