Hi Ne, I am so sorry you are feeling this way but I really appreciate your honesty, your truthfulness. It's so bloody hard facing this new reality and I wish I had an answer, a solution, a remedy for you, me and all of the women on this network. The only thing I can offer is understanding. I feel the same way. You are not crazy, you are not alone. But you are winning. It may be a different kind of winning than you had imagined, but you're still here, hurt, and definitely bruised, but here and winning. That's not weakness, that's strength. Sending you big hugs. Nadine