Last AC Infusion

My last AC was nine days ago. For the first 2 days I was so dizzy and gagging constantly. If I even sipped water I would vomit. If I slept I would have horrific nighmare/hallucinations with me being sucked into tunnels of spinning cherry red iv tubes and needles. Headaches, constipation, nausea, dizziness and preemptive vomiting continue. Only 5 days till last AC, keep bursting into tears and having panic attacks and feeling like I just can’t do it again. Please will someone tell me that the ‘T’ (taxol) is different/ easier. Bawling eyes out again