Even without allergy issues we all felt like the Captain before a battle before starting chemo....scared to death but trying to pretend to everyone else we are not. My husband kept saying you need to keep positive...never wanted to discuss the what ifs...somedays I wanted to slap him. If I can't talk to him about my fears then who with. Well we can at least talk here. I cried a lot before starting chemo. The morning of chemo I balled in the shower, I felt nauseas and terrified....and I once worked in oncology. But once there I felt I had control back and was supported by the staff. You may even have a special nurse with you for the day. Know that we will all be thinking of you Monday and look forward to your post of your experience. I'd with you too...only I live in Brojen Hill...but will be with you in spirit. Stay strong my friend, believe. Kath x
