Dear dear Jdakic my heart is breaking for you. I just want to bundle you up and give you a big hug. You are not alone on here. There are so many wonderful people who care about you and are here to support you in any way we can. I totally understand your feelings of having to face this with out other distractions and needing to focus on you. This is about you. You are the priority. You are not sooking. You need to put you as number one. Knowing that it will be a hard day helps you to prepare but it would be so much nicer if your husband was able to see this and be there as a support. If I was nearby I'd go with you myself.
It is good to vent, keep venting. Let it all out. Find some way you can still pamper yourself this weekend and find some peace and rest. No doubt it will be a hard day on Monday but be as strong as you can be, tell the nurses your fears. They seem prepared to do all they can for you. I am stumbling with my words here but really I just want to say I hope you come through this with as little side effects as possible and keep smiling. Sending you lots of love, will be thinking of you.
love Jacqui xxx
