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msowl
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13 years ago

It's started!

 I had almost started to make myself believe that I might not lose my hair after all...how silly! Even after a couple of beautiful people on this site shared their experiences I still hoped I wouldn't. Even with all the funny things going on with my head and the huge headaches and my hair getting coarser I still hoped. I can't really explain this. I knew deep down in a more rational place that it would happen. After all why should I be any different from anyone else! I have had an amazing last 2 days too where I actually started to feel a bit better. Then yesterday as I was watching the Melbourne Cup with my youngest son, I ran my fingers through my hair and some strands came out. Was this the start of it? Then this morning ( day 12 after treatment ) heaps more! I can't touch my hair or comb it without heaps of strands coming out! Hair is ending up everywhere! So I will have to get it shaved very soon. Yesterday I received some scarves that I had ordered and last night tried them on. I don't think they suit me AT ALL!!! In fact I hate the way I look in them. So now, when I thought I was prepared I find I am NOT! Not at all! Wondering if that could be why I don't feel quite so good today? As a male aquaintance said to me quite bluntly on Monday...it's only hair!  It will grow back. Typical male I suppose.But it is so much of who we are as women isn't it?. So...l know I need to buckle up and buck up and deal with his next step and be strong....But!  T. 

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  • Mich_x's avatar
    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hey

    You are not self centred, you are normal so don't worry about that.

    I hope when it comes time to go the full monty you manage to have a couple of celebratory drinks to wish your hair bon voyage for now.

    Good luck with it and stay in touch.

    LOL, Mich xoxo

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    msowl
    Member
    13 years ago

    Oh Mich...thank you! So very much for that. It is so good to share this journey with someone who has been there before me. Do you know how special you are for the care and concern you show? Yes I am planning on shaving my hair off. Was going to do it with a few friends to help in case of tears etc, but my hair is falling out quicker than they thought and they aren't available just yet! The other day I was thinking how this is all making me feel so self centred too...I'm not too comfortable with that!

    T. xx 

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    Mich_x
    Member
    13 years ago

    Oh sweety, it is only hair and I promise you it does grow back. BUT in saying that I know how hard it is and it really really sucks.  I hated wearing scarves so never ever did, not even around the house.  I bought some cute lil hats or wore my wig and I got through.  At home I didn't wear anything but had  a lil hat by the front door should there be a knock at the door.

    My wig was my saviour.  I have 50,000 scarves that will now go to the wig service for them to pass on to other ladies who are unfortunate to be in our position.  As soon as I can give up the bond I had formed with my wig that will also go to the wig council.  My hair is growing back and I get so many wonderful comments on how fantastic it looks and I should keep it just as it is which is a huge boost.  No more wig for me these days.

    I am telling you this because I hope it will help you look to the future and even though he was a bloke he was right, it is only hair and it is only temporary that you will be without it.  All this BC crap we have to go through is only temporary but hard for us to grasp that.

    Don't be too hard on yourself for feeling down and ripped off as we all do when our hair decides to leave us, I believe it is a bit of a grieving process we go through.  You are right in saying our hair is such a big part of who we are.

    If I can suggest you take control like most of us girls did and shave your hair off to take away some of the discomfort and to feel liberated.  You probably won't like what you look like bald but you do get used to it or just learn to live with it.

    I am sorry that you are having to go through this.  Thinking of you.

    Mich xoxoxo