Oh Jules. I feel you.
Im the worst Dr Google around. When I was first diagnosed 4 weeks ago I googled for 3 days straight with hardly no sleep. I worked myself up so badly I was vomiting. I even googled my breast surgeon and when I finally met him, though my tears i said " oh you look just like your photos on google". he held my hand and said " im much better looking in real life though arnt i?".
I must admit, I still google, but no where near as much lol
Deanne is right, we are all indivual and each of our diagnoses is unique. I really need to take my own advice sometimes hehe
I understand the waiting too. I was supposed to start chemo today. Found the courage to walk in the door this morning, then saw my oncologist who wants to wait a week to ensure my mastectomy scar has healed better ( i had a slight infection and was on antibiotics). I was devestated because now I have find more inner strength to walk in there next week! ARGHH
I think your attitude and sense of humour is amazing given what you are going through and about to go through :)
That little person in your photo is absolutely gorgeous!! xx
Jodie