Implant Reconstruction
I had a mastectomy & immediate reconstruction 4 days ago. How weird is that. I think that on some level I didn't believe that it would actually happen & that I would still be me afterwards.
I was in hospital for 3 nights when they had said it could be up to a week so that was good. I feel a bit stiff & sore but it is ok as long as I am careful not to move my arm too much. I had been really nervous about the drain but it wasn't nearly as creepy as I had imagined. These are the good points.
On the other hand, I didn't like being in the hospital. Especially at first when it was hard to move & I had to call the nurse to unhook me from various things every time I needed to go to the toilet.
And then there is the real problem..
I had only one side done & the plan was that the silicone implant should go straight in, or if there wasn't enough skin left then I would have to have an expander. But, it turned out the surgeon put in an expander because there wasn't an implant small enough!
When I met the plastic surgeon beforehand he asked did I want the other side enlarged at the same time (which would make it easier make the breasts match) but I didn't. My breasts are quite small & I'm happy with that. He said that was ok & he would do his best to match the existing breast. He saw what size they were at that time so how come he was then apparently caught out during the operation & didn't have an appropriate implant?
Surely it can't be the smallest implant anyone has ever wanted? And even if it is, shouldn't he have planned for that beforehand?
I feel quite confused and upset by this. It means I will need to have another operation to replace the expander with a permanent implant which is upsetting & also it means I have lost some trust that the doctors know what they're doing.
I have an appointment on Thursday, to check how it is healing and to plan what happens next.