Hi freaking out is normal, I still remember how I felt when I was going through treatment. It has now been over 12 months and I'm starting to have milestones, like having my first mamogram and finishing herceptin.
When I was diagnosed it was a shock but thought ok this is doable, mine kept changing and getting more and more difficult. Somehow you cope one day at a time and alot of laughter, I beleive if I'm laughing I'm not crying. ( i did alot of both) Today I'm still standing and trying to get back to some sort of normal Take carexxxxxx