Hi Heidi. I am sorry to hear about the unpleasant events during chemo - I hope it is relatively plain sailing from here. can't believe the timing with loss of your job! I identify so strongly with everything in your last paragraph. On my blog (the one linked to at the bottom of my BCNA posts) I wrote a whole post about suffering from 'Carpe Diem Syndrome' - my term for the self-imposed pressure I felt after diagnosis to tackle everything in my life that needed changing, all at once! Sounds like you're also showing symptoms!!
All the very best, and hope you're adjusting to the Sinaed look OK...
Liz