I want this thing out of me now!

Hi again Jo

What wonderful advice and stories you have received.  I am now, as of today, exactly halfway through 6 weeks of radiotherapy (yay for me).  I have just arrived home and am exhausted - fatigue is setting back in so my little hiatus between chemo and radio is over.  I received a lecture from the care nurse this afternoon about looking after my skin and myself - time to shift the thinking!  Chemo brain is an absolute truth, fear, uncertainty and sadness are all true feelings as well.  I haven't eaten a proper meal for months and have to remind myself to make sure I am drinking enough fluids.  You are lucky to have people with you because you will be reminded more to have a meal.  On the flip side, I've lost 17kgs that I desperately needed to lose (preferably not through this process though!) I have slowed down so less stressed and am laughing alot more.  I fear I might be becoming quite militant and am definitely pushier with authorities if I want answers!  So although this is a journey none of us want and we can get really tied down with the enormity of what we are experiencing, the sun still shines, spring is definitely on the way and the days are getting a little bit longer. It won't be long before you too will begin to see the sun - I am NOT looking forward to having flushes though - no amount of cheer is going to make me accept that!!!  You will get through this, Jo.  You might not believe that and that's completely natural, but you will.

xxx :)