I want this thing out of me now!

Oh you poor sole, i really feel for you as if one main operation isn't enough. What happened to you is what worries me the most, I am terrible at making those  types of  decision and i know if given the same options as you i will spin out of control. How can someone expect you to choose, that really scares me.

Im scared if they give me the lumpectomy then it will return or they will find more has spread.                          I'm scared that if they leave the boob there it will become cancerious anyway and spread everywhere.            I'm scared if they take my boob off they will distroy my sole. My boobs are me and it is part of me being a woman as you would know.

I am scared that i will die if i don't choose the right treatment.

I really don't know how you did it you are obviously so very brave.  I wish  you the very best luck with your treatment and future treatments and thank you for sharing your journey with me.

Thanks Julia