I want this thing out of me now!

Hi Tonya thank you for replying.  OMG Everything your saying is what i feel.   I'm glad my feelings and thoughts are normal even though that still comes as a surprise. I thought i was going nuts. Yes the waiting definitely is doing my head in, Time has never gone so slow. I really do want this thing out now rather than later.

You, like many others on this forum  have been through so much and still you have come out the other side willing to brighten up the day for someone else.

You got your cancer back in the same breast 7 years after the first time, even after you had radiation treatment and full node clearance. Can i ask, do you know why it came back when you were cleared and did you go on some tablets after the treatment. .

It is really sad what you have had to endure,but i am happy you have come out of it so positive. i dont think i could be so brave.  I don't know whats going to happen to me but at least i am starting to feel a bit  more settled(well sometimes) I am just scared that  it has already taken hold in my body everywhere else.

Can i ask you what sort of plan do i need , don't they decide everything for me in regards to treatment etc ?.

thank you for the support .

 Jo xx