I want this thing out of me now!

Believe it or not you are having completely normal reactions.We have all felt what you are feeling now.You are still in the shock/disbelief stage.You have to keep reminding yourself in the morning that it's not a bad dream but real.The waiting around is what does your head in.The first time I had breast cancer(2003)I had visions of the cancer racing through my body while I waited for surgery.I was sick to the pit of my stomach and I just wanted it out of me quickly. I feel for you having to wait till 11th august and I would suggest you ring your surgeon and put pressure on to see him sooner.Maybe you'll get in on a cancellation.In the meantime keep yourself REALLY busy -a glass of red at night helps.Try not to think the worst because you are more than likely going to be ok.I got cancer back in the same spot,same breast 7 years later.So last year I had a mastectomy and chemo.Back in 2003 I had a lumpectomy,full node clearance and radiation.So I've become an "expert" on all the treatments.I'm fine now and I wear a prosthesis.Once you have a plan and a surgery date you will go into "battle"mode and you will feel abit better than you are feeling now.Jump on here anytime -always nice ladies to talk to.We all support each other and collectively,we make up one very intelligent brain.

                                       Tonya xx