Hi girls, when I was first diagnosed back in 2006, I was so upset but heh it felt like s......... So like you Tonya I decided that miserable was not for me and then went about looking for all the positives that would improve my life. I have pretty well stuck to that theory - it is a bit hard though waking up to aches and pains each day BUT I am looking at what I can do not want I can't do. ( Looks like all the weeds in my garden will either have to be pulled by someone else or just die on their own!!!) Have a great day - It's my and my husband's 4th wedding anniversary today - He is at work and I'm off to have a portacath flushout!!! XLeonie