I just feel 'blah'... and that's OK

Hey Maxene, just read this post I hope you are feeling better. I have sooky la la days like TonyaM. Dont beat yourself up about it you are allowed, we all are after what we are all going through. It is good you have support at work and someone you can share with , it is good for him too by the sounds of it.  I can relate to you about needles I hate them too, we worked out if I lay flat or stand against the wall the nurses get the needle into the port 1st time so maybe you can ask your nurse to try this. Do you apply Emla cream over the port to numb the area 1 hour before you go to chemo?? It is so good, you can get it from your chemo nurse.

I am sure you look beautiful in your wig and you do not have to explain to anyone that you have cancer and it is a wig, take the compliment and walk out with a smile on your face , it does not make you a fraud so please do not feel like that. I do not wear a wig just hats and I had a melt down last week when a young girl at the pharmacy commented on how nice my hat was and wanted to know where she could get one, she had beautiful long blonde hair and looked so healthy. I was having a really bad  day I felt sick, looked crap, had thrush in my mouth a chest infection and I snapped at her and said why the hell would you want a cancer hat you little twit, you have beautiful  long hair, I turned and walked out all eyes were on me I was so humiliated and sat in my car crying, later in the day I had to return and say sorry to the girl. I have heard of a lady who pulled her wig off in a supermarket and threw it at the sales girl who commented on her lovely hair style telling her if she liked her hair so much she could have it LOL  So at least you just thanked her and walked out feeling good.

Have a great day, Kathryne