Hi Tonya, thank you for your response - wow - there are people who have read my story. My first brush with cancer was the DCIS and somehow I never really thought "I have cancer" as it was all contained and apart from the lumpectomies I never had any further treatment. But boy this time around I'm certainly aware, chemo is really frightening, the first session is down and I'm sure not looking forward to the rest but I'm glad to see that you are on the other side of it now, gives me hope that I will be one day too ! thanks again, sandra xx