I hate this

@Elmumof2  i know where u r at. I didnt check the date of your post but right now thats where  i am at also. Lying here in hospital still. Hurting like crap. Love it when my fam come in but cant wait till they go also. Cause its hard to keep laughing, its hard and exhausting to convince them how good u feel and that your not at all worried and will be just fine.  When deep down u r going through physical and mental hell.  You want to be alone so you dont need to pretend for everyone. As said im still in hospital too and dont know when going as ended up being a little more extensive. Brain racing, cant sleep and is now 1.15am. Thats why we r here though, so u can vent and be as shitty as u want and it wont upset anyone as we are all or were, in the same place. Hugs and feel however u want to feel. We have earned that right i think