I hate this

Hi El, I don't think there is one of us that hasn't had those I HATE THIS moments! It is such a horrible thing to go through, every little part of it. You get through one thing and then wham there's the next thing to face. I guess one way to look at it though is for all the reasons you hate what you are going through and facing, those same reasons are what keep you strong and making it through. Holding those beautiful little babies of yours will make it all worth it, having your life back will make it all worth it, beating this horrible illness and not looking back will make it all worth it. I guess the biggest thing I try to remember is that it's ok not to be strong all the time ( something I'm learning ) and it is ok to be angry, to cry and to grieve most of all it's ok to admit that your vulnerable sometimes. We are all stronger than we probably realise but that doesn't make us immune to bad days. I hope that you get home to you beautiful family tomorrow and those cuddles help get you through.

Kat xx