I hate this

Thanks ladies .I will look into getting a comfort pillow and I'm sure every day I'll feel better .When my kids visit me it kills me how I can't just pick them up and cuddle them tightly as I always have .I was breastfeeding both till few weeks ago .Cancer has taken stuff like this away from me it's so unfair.People comment how good my breasts look , but I loved my breasts I didn't want these ones that feel like bricks and look so freaking weird not even having a nipple .I feel so lonely although lots of friends visit  .It's the 4th day post op  and definitely the worst one .I am not going to let this get to me I will keep fighting , tomorrow is a new day .Lots of hugs to all you lovely friends thanks for letting me be me xxx