I don't know how to deal with this

Hi Natalie, Thank you for asking. I am finding that I am finding some periods of calm and acceptance as time is moving on. My thought care not constantly focus on secondaries and my ultimate end which is a good thing. I'm feeling more. Like a survivor but I do fear what life after treatment might be like. How do you cope with the thoughts so recurrence? What I stage were you if I may ask? What lifestyle changes have you made to try and prevent metastasis? Thank you again for reaching yo to me. Mandyxx