I don't know how to deal with this

I'm reading your update from hospital where I've been since Mon as a planned admission to get Cyclozine intravenously for my nausea....so glad to hear you are feeling more positive:) Be kind it yourself and try not to get ahead of yourself...my analogy is that this journey is like riding up a hill that doesn't seem to end and every so often you need someone to jump out from the bushes and give you a decent shove so you can get a bit further up the hill:))