How dare I!
REST, RECOVER, RESTORE. Sorry in advance.......but here it comes...... Well I'm having one of those weeks........The light is dimmed somewhat..... It's been just over two weeks since I...
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Oh Tracy,
Three years ago I had just finished my treatment. You and I have had very similar treatments. I can remember feeling exactly as you do right now. I had to go to a work Christmas party with my hubby and face many people I had not seen for all of my treatment time. I was still bald, minus one breast and still so badly burnt that I could not wear my proper prosthesis. It was so hard and I was so over the whole process. Yes, no energy, fearful of the cancer returning, still worried about my hair not growing, etc.
But I let myself cry, I gave myself time to feel all those things and then I decided to put all that anger, sadness and fear into getting myself better. That was where I got just enough energy to start building my new life. Everyday I tried to improve things just a little. For me that was what I was eating (my fuel needed to be premium) and doing exercise wise (which was absolutely nothing by the end of treatment).
I set myself very small goals, ones that I just could not fail to achieve. Achieving them gave me energy, one little bit at a time. I actually think this is when the fight really starts. The fight to not let cancer destroy the rest of your life. But it is so hard because the treatment leaves us so empty of energy. It is really tough but so are we. We survived treatment and we deserve to feel better and have a good life again.
So I hope you get clear results from that scan and then give yourself time to grieve your life before bc. Then use that anger, frustration and fear to fuel your steps towards a good (different but still good) life again. It takes time but you get there just like you have with treatment. One step, one day at a time. Oh, and make sure you celebrate every positive step you make because it is so hard. We all know that and will celebrate with you. Will be sending some positive vibes for a clear scan your way. Take care. Deanne xxx
Three years ago I had just finished my treatment. You and I have had very similar treatments. I can remember feeling exactly as you do right now. I had to go to a work Christmas party with my hubby and face many people I had not seen for all of my treatment time. I was still bald, minus one breast and still so badly burnt that I could not wear my proper prosthesis. It was so hard and I was so over the whole process. Yes, no energy, fearful of the cancer returning, still worried about my hair not growing, etc.
But I let myself cry, I gave myself time to feel all those things and then I decided to put all that anger, sadness and fear into getting myself better. That was where I got just enough energy to start building my new life. Everyday I tried to improve things just a little. For me that was what I was eating (my fuel needed to be premium) and doing exercise wise (which was absolutely nothing by the end of treatment).
I set myself very small goals, ones that I just could not fail to achieve. Achieving them gave me energy, one little bit at a time. I actually think this is when the fight really starts. The fight to not let cancer destroy the rest of your life. But it is so hard because the treatment leaves us so empty of energy. It is really tough but so are we. We survived treatment and we deserve to feel better and have a good life again.
So I hope you get clear results from that scan and then give yourself time to grieve your life before bc. Then use that anger, frustration and fear to fuel your steps towards a good (different but still good) life again. It takes time but you get there just like you have with treatment. One step, one day at a time. Oh, and make sure you celebrate every positive step you make because it is so hard. We all know that and will celebrate with you. Will be sending some positive vibes for a clear scan your way. Take care. Deanne xxx