Hi Joy, I actually realised later that I was better off having seen the BCN later rather than earlier during my stay. I was frustrated and worried about being allergic to the Methyl Blue when I was stressing about not having seen her. However, I chose to type up all my notes as I had written them in hospital as I want others to know that if they have these feelings & reactions that they are not the only one out there. It is extremely hard when you are 36 with little ones at home, my youngest being 7 months old, and you don't really know what us happening. You feel like you have lost control when everyone around you is relying on you.