we are always glad when people get on here, and support each other, so your first post landed in exactly the right place, and i did have tears in my eyes reading your story, my thinking is the glass is half full, but sometimes its hard to get it over that half way mark, but with people who have been on the journey knowing exactly what we are feeling and talking about, makes a BIG difference, so please keep comming back and chatting to everyone. I am also a Champion of this site, so we are always looking for ways to improve communication. I live in a rural community and there is no support group, the nearest is 145k's away, so having been on the bcna community liaison course in Melbourne, i can at least raise awareness of this great crowd of friends. My keyboard keeps spelling things wrong (of course its not me, trying to type to fast hehe). Anyway just wanted to welcome you, and look forward to chatting on line.x