Hanging in there...just :)

It is so tough knowing that you have to go through something that is going to cause you such pain and going to make you feel so awful. They told me that people either 'sail through' this drug or like you (and Hazel and me) have lots of side effects. People kept saying things like 'nearly there' and expecting me to feel happy about this (and in the back of my mind somewhere I guess I did) BUT they just did not understand how worn out I was and how much energy this drug took to handle. But I did feel relief when I walked out of that last chemo session and knew that I did not ever have to have that drug again. It did help to know that each day after that I was a day closer to truly getting over this. My taste buds would come back and stay back. My body could start to function and recover without that drug destroying it anymore. And I did think that if anything was going to get rid of the cancer then it should surely be this drug! We know how incredibly strong you are to get through this. Believe me you will feel like you can do anything after this! I have lost the weight that this drug added to my unwilling body and am fit and healthy again. You will be able to do this too! Keep hanging in there. Deanne xxx