Half way home stretch
Hey hey
Just when you all thought the tourettes talk was all quiet.... i m back! Have been quiet last 2 weeks as had a few assignments and 2 exams. All went well.sitting 3 Ds and 1 HD at the minute so f*** you cancer!!
On the hair front i m still continuing with the cold cap trial even though it s all gone..but take heart ladies because in the last 2 weeks bumfluff is appearing randomly all over my head.up to an inch and a half long.its pretty thinned out and not alot of coverage but it s the promise that my wiry curly mofo hair made before it was dragged out in a combing and washing frenzy...in the words of arnie...i ll be back..feck yeah.i mother frigging love you my curly friend.i don t care that it looks like my wayward pubes have ran up my back and one remaining lady lump during the night and attached themselves to my chrome dome .i just glad you are there.
On another note i have had my ariel little mermaid meets cher drag queen curly human hair wig considerably chopped and it lots exactly like my own hair. Anyone considering the wigoption.go for it. It takes abit of time maybe a week or to to get the hang of it but i m going to write a wig blog which might help. I use a full lace cap with a net underneath and honestly during then day.i don t even realise i m wearing it.feels like my own hair. Only i have no discretion mechanism.i ve been stopped a few times and told my hair is amazing is it naturally curly...note i hate lying...to which i always end up saying yes.but this is a wig.i ve got cancer but this is my normal colour and what my hair looks like...arrrghhhhhhh.damn you honest marge.
3rd round chemoyesterday.went okish. Got pre med of phenergan this time so no reactions just really woozy with that.staff decided to resite the line after the cold cap had been on for an hour as doxi burning...that ended up a wee treasure hunt.not so much fun.but so far so good.feeling knackered this morning.have gained 4kg since last round.feckn ridiculous.i blame it on the loss of taste.can only really taste cheese.so been loading up on toasties doritos you name it. Back on the treadmill as i was those bitches gone. Need to be a cancer free syper model for ma fine new titties when they arrive post reconstruction.
Still having major whatifs.have read alot of its back stuff in the last week and that scaring the bejesus out of me. But i have to get clear.i want a long future with my family.been shadowing a duty lawyer at court all week.i know i can help people again like i did with nursing. I just need that bloody chance. I just have the phobias it ll come back like it did with my beautiful wonderful friend...who not a day goes by that i don t miss.tears coming..maggi out.xx
