Thanks @Abbydog. I finished radiation last week and had my port removed yesterday and then I start tablets in a couple of weeks (I asked to start after my birthday on the 26th Jan!). My focus now is on trying to get my brain into gear and live life as much as I can without thinking about cancer all the time (right now it's so hard, but hoping it will at least get a bit better - if I slept better it would help!). My Oncologist said the same - you've had all the treatments so we assume everything is ok, until something tells us differently. I'm not sure what to say when people ask how I am, somedays it's easier just to say good, other days I feel crap, but don't want to go into it, so I just say - I'm getting there or to my friends I mostly tell the truth and if I'm struggling I say so. It's such a shit disease, I'm trying not to be angry anymore, but it's changed my life so much, maybe some is for the better.
