First times for everything

Oh Tiffany, so sorry you have had to join "the club". I was diagnosed April 2014. Lumpectomy, 5 months chemo, 33 radiotherapy treatments and 12 months herceptin. As Jessica said you aren't whinging but even if you were, here's the place to do it as we all understand. My husband cops it on and off too. I think because it is "safe" to lash out at him because you know he loves you and will forgive you. God love hormones too! What hope do we have with them coursing through our systems. I remember saying to my hubby" I'm a good girl, I don't drink or smoke etc". His words to me were it is a disease, it doesn't care. It doesn't discriminate. And it is true. My tumor was in a cyst. I had had cysts before and wasn't worried at all but it didn't disappear when aspirated. Although I had been told it was cancer, I knew there was something seriously wrong when the mammogram took 2 hours. They found 3 more suspect lumps, 2 of which ended up being positive. It's scary, confronting, unfair and all the rest of the words you can think of to describe it. We all seem to go through a range of emotions and feelings and that can change so easily. You need to go with the flow and allow yourself to feel the way you do. If need be, get a referral to a counsellor to help you through. Most of all, be kind to you. Take care. Love Karen xox