hi there kath
I too have tried to avoid this site as I thought it was a reminder of my breast cancer and I'm trying to move on too. May last year I had tnbc 3cm tumor no lymph nodes involved didn't have the radiation as I chose to have a mastectomy so just had 8 rounds of chemo 4 AC and 4 paclitaxol then in November chose to have the other one off too. Have decided to have a reconstruction now too at some stage. So nearly 6 months post chemo Ive felt vulnerable as unlike other breast cancers we don't take tamoxifen etc to help prevent recurrence. Saw my surgeon on Friday for post op follow up who reassured me. I still ache from the last round of chemo. My hands especially at night as long as I don't move them too much (any tips on how to reduce the discomfort at night would be appreciated Ive tried everything) its fine and I'm good through the day once everythings warmed up. I wake early and walk my dogs and watch the sun rise over the water and feel grateful to be alive and it gives me that positive energy I need for the day and feel better when I read stuff on this site rather than avoiding it. Ive started back at work this week so that's a huge distraction and I just take each day as it comes. I have definitely had my dark days but when I do I just force myself to carry on and it soon passes. I get the aches in my legs still sometimes and in my arms but in not constant and its always the same and so far has not gotten any worse so oncologist says that's all positive. The early menopause symptoms get me sometimes especially with the bloody hot flushes I have a squirty botlle in my fridge that my hubby suggested I spray my face and neck with when I get them and its awesome!. Am grateful its now winder in qld!. The menopause has also affected my libido was wondering if that's what others have too and I'm not sure when the cancer free period is supposed to start is it from the time I had the surgery or when I finished chemo but like I said a day at a time and each day that passes is another day I'm cancer free. My hair has also grown back quite a bit now so I no longer look like a chemo patient so that helps my mental state too. Hang in there with all of us if you want to chat just message me anytime. Margie