Finished treatment and scared
finished chemo and rads 9 weeks ago for tnbc and scared! 10 mm lesion with no lymph involvement and fully excisedz. How do I get past the fear? My bones ache from chemo in hip and back and im terrifi...
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@kathseward anyone who has traveled this road will completely understand the complexity of what you feel. I was first diagnosed in 2011 luckily early ER+ lumpectomy Rads and tamoxifen 4yrs. I honestly moved on and never thought of a recurrence at all. 2015 a routine checkup as I had done every year showed a 2.5cm tumor ER+ no lymph node involvement, BRCA gene negative Stage 2 Grade 3. Yep my world did come crashing down thinking OMG how!!!!! and AGAIN???? really??? unbelievable. BUT I did chemo 2015 and have been clear since so heading into 2yrs and recovering from a Mastectomy/diep flap recon as we speak due to recurrence, not gambling again.
Absolutely I think about recurrence but there are so many what ifs and what I do is one foot in front of the other, one day at a time surrounding myself with the love and support of great people, enjoying my children, focusing on plans and getting busy...until one day I wake up and so much time has passed that yes I still have the fear but it doesnt have a hold of me anymore. Together with FAITH that no matter what, I will deal with whatever comes. Reminding yourself you are beyond strong and your determination to enjoy your life rather than worry becomes the bigger. Big hugs you will get there absolutely! slowly slowly Melinda xo
Absolutely I think about recurrence but there are so many what ifs and what I do is one foot in front of the other, one day at a time surrounding myself with the love and support of great people, enjoying my children, focusing on plans and getting busy...until one day I wake up and so much time has passed that yes I still have the fear but it doesnt have a hold of me anymore. Together with FAITH that no matter what, I will deal with whatever comes. Reminding yourself you are beyond strong and your determination to enjoy your life rather than worry becomes the bigger. Big hugs you will get there absolutely! slowly slowly Melinda xo