Felt surreal

I still catch glimpses of this person I don't really know in the mirror and it's been 5 months now since I finished chemo. I have coloured my hair for years too as I wasn't ready to go grey gracefully. So having no hair at all when I got my husband to shave it off was such a horrible experience that I bawled my eyes out. I did get used to wearing my scarves though and had some lovely ways to tie them. I didn't bother with a wig as I wasn't working and thought I'd not really need one. My hair is totally grey and curling as it grows. It's about 3 cms at the sides and back but still quite slow at growing on top where it's about 2 cms. I'm hoping by Christmas I might be able to go without a scarf but I'm really quite scared of relieving my new head of hair. It's SO different and it reminds me of what I've gone through this year too much. I know I'm going to have to get over it and I will but I feel very vulnerable right now. So good on you for your 'head up' attitude and wearing your scarf with pride. Weight gain has been an issue for me too. I put on 4 kilos during chemo. I've manage to lose 2 of the 4 kilos and I think that's due to walking everyday and trying to stick to a healthy diet. I do have the odd chocolate or two every now and then though :) I need some rewards. Good luck with it all Hazel Love Janey xxx