Hey Louisa!
I am still waiting for my full results after my lumpectomy 13/1/16, my nodes came back positive so they went too. Although I am still recovering from my surgery, i have thought and thought about impending treatment! My cancer biopsy results only said Invasive Ductal Carcinoma and that its hormone receptive. I only have an indication of how big it was because the surgeon explained it as large and nasty, I may need further surgery, but I am also expecting chemo..i will definitely have radiation and hormone therapies too.
I think I am more afraid of the treatment phase than the actual surgery. I am anxious about losing my hair, anxious that I may lose more of my 14HH size boobs, but you know what your hair will grow back and as far as my boobs go, well i can get false ones (maybe a few sizes smaller!)
The hardest thing to grasp is how you will feel throughout this experience, you just don't know until you get there. I think the initial shock, the information overload, that fact YOU actually have cancer and how will you deal with it effects your way of thinking in an astounding way. I think your brain has a natural way of "numbing" your reaction. It's like a preparation to make you strong and sane enough to get through it....The next days, weeks, months will blur by I imagine, expect that there will be good days and there will be bad, low days and deal with them as they come. Anticipation plays havoc with the mind. Try to meditate ....and keep a positive attitude! remember to breathe, I mean really breathe, when we are under stress, we take shorter shallow breaths..breath in courage, exhale fear ..breeeeathe! Write everything down, ask a million questions, no matter how silly you think they are!
Good luck with everything and remember we are behind you every step!
Love and light
- Tracy
Stay Strong|Breathe|Believe
