Feeling defeated

Sounds like youre a little like me and had a bad luck run.  Mine occured when I was young and rolled my first car, uninsured, baby sitting 2 of my bosses kids, who werent wearing a seat belt.  My father was the local police sgt, and I was 17, in my first job, and my boss was the Councils District Clerk.  I have so many stories that ran on from there I wound up with a bad attitude in my 20's from it, nothing seemed to go my way, I just felt plain unlucky!  This is just a stage, and one that passes, unfortunately, it aint much fun when the luck seems to run out all at once.  No words ever made me feel better, I needed lots of money and a magic wand, and I had neither.  Character building they call it (fffttt!), its never easy and I have learnt now at 46 with cancer, that some-times  we just gotta wade through the mud for awhile.  Luckily, happier times are ahead, time goes by, nothing stays the same, and from out of no-where bam, one day ya wake up and you go - Hell I made it through that, again!  But I so wish you well, and really hope something out of blue comes up to make your day a bit happier tomorrow.  My heart goes out to you too!  XX Bel  Im hearin ya sister!