Fat, Bald and Yuk!

I soooo remember that feeling of lost identity. You catch yourself in the mirror and for a split second you don't  recognise yourself. You can't do what you used to do cos you are feeling crap and zapped of energy.You get sick of trying to co ordinate your head gear with your clothes.And yes,you do avoid eye contact with the human race. I'm sorry you didn't feel so good for the Ronan concert- chemo really throws a wet blanket over any anticipated event. Yes,I puffed up like a blow fish and it wasn't until a year later that some friends told me how dreadful I had looked-gosh thanks for that! Penny ,you are in the miserable thick of it right now but as soon as you finish chemo you'll gradually get your old self back. I'd tell myself that ok,cancer and chemo have taken my boob,my hair,my strength but I'm damned if they'll take my personality and sense of humour.Hang onto the inner Penny and the outside one will come back later.Sending hugs.

                                            love Tonya xx