Good luck for your operation! I had a lumpectomy in 2002 followed by chemo and radiation. Then in August last year, I found a new little lump which required a mastectomy and chemo again. I'm seeing my surgeon in May to arrange a mastectomy on the other side and a double reconstruction. I'm not nervous at all, because I found the recovery from the previous surgeries to be really straight forward. I also had my ovaries out in January to get my high estrogen levels down. Instant menopause at 44! But after all I've been through, I'm feeling really happy and healthy again. I've lost my hair and grown it back twice, but I always kept my sense of humor and took things one day at a time. Nothing will happen to you that you can't handle, it just seems scary because it's all so serious and unknown. Just remember to laugh a lot and do things that make you happy! All the best xx Jane