Yep, we all have those fears of recurrence. I am trying to push that to the back of my mind and I know I am doing all I can to minimise the risk. I can't reproach myself if it does happen. None of us know what the future holds and I am living for today. I'm glad you have a friend who knows what you are going through and can help you through. I am becoming obsessed with quotes right now so forgive me if I write a couple here.
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have" Bob Marley.
"The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall". Nelson Mandala.
These give me courage. :)
Janey xxx