Thanks for your encouraging words. I do feel better knowing that I'm not alone and I know that I can't always hold it together either. I think this has a lot to do with the decision I am still to make about having both breasts removed or not and its hanging over my head like the darkest of clouds. So anything like my son's issue is going to upset me I guess. I feel a bit better tonight and as Louie suggested, I'll ask my Onc for something to help calm me down in the weeks prior to my op. All you ladies have helped immensely and I am so grateful to you. No one knows whats it's like unless you've been or going through it. So my thoughts are with you too. Good luck with the rest of your treatment Deanne xxxxxxxooooo Jane