It's ok not to be the strong one for once , we all try and stay strong and put on this brave front for everyone including ourselves, I think it's a woman's trait , your life becomes so full of tests appointments pills treatments that we are on this massive roller coaster and we want to get off but we can't , go on cry and get it out ,I used to sob on the toilet so no would know, which is ridiculous, and talk to the breast nurse I found they were so much more rational, you may need a helping hand, don't be afraid to ask. We will try to give you support as much as we know how, all the best for your son, amazing you look to young to have a 23year old. Love and hugs adean