Well, I am pretty low at the moment Ladies. I spent three days in hospital last week with a high temperature but thankfully they think I only had a viral infection but I was miserable in an isolation...
Have you tried some anti anxiety medication? I found it really helped me stay on a more even keel.
I really resisted taking any meds during chemo, but my hubby reasoned that it was chemo and pre med and post chemo drugs making me crazy, so no amount of meditation or positive thoughts would control it. Don't beat yourself up....take something to help your mind and body.
Love and hugs
Louie