@kezmusc "Nuclear grade flushes". Both you and @Zoffiel have used that phrase. So perfect for what I'm experiencing multiple times a day at the moment. Especially the ones that come with needle sharp pricks from my fingers to above my elbows. Painful and deeply unpleasant.
I hate the loss of my brain acuity. I'm just not on top of everything like I used to be. My memory isn't as good, I reach for words that I then fail to find. My mind used to be a reasonably sharp all round kitchen utility knife. Now it's a blunt bread and butter knife.
"Depressive funks" tick, "anger" tick, "helpless" tick. Again last night I read yet another source of menopause management advice... I do eat incredibly healthily, I exercise regularly (20kms of walking in the last week), I've minimised alcohol and coffee intake, and don't eat highly spiced food very often at all. I don't think there's anything that can help me but I suppose I'll keep trying.
So yep, I feel bleak. The 10 year timeframe is too far for me to focus on, to aim for. I'm seeing my breast surgeon today to get a new oncologist (old one quit) and I'll talk to the new one about the possibility of building in a yearly break so I can mentally aim at something in the medium term. And maybe in time my body will adjust and I'll find it easier.
I read a study last night that said Letrozole was the drug that gets the best results of all the AIs. I want to stay on it if I can. I don't want this cancer f****r to come back and have to look back and regret not toughing it out. However I know I have to weigh up my quality of life issues as well.
Thank you for your empathy. It means a lot to me, it truly does. Again this forum delivers; at least I don't feel so alone. Thanks Kezza, hug received. Kate xox