Thank you for your replies.
I am taking everything as it comes.When I feel well...great.When I don't feel well...I take it easy.
My attitude has become....I can't change my diagnosis so I deal with each step as it comes to change the outcome. I think I've almost detached myself from the enormity of the situation...whatever it takes to get through.
Christmas Day will be a great day no matter what happens...my family laughs that I'm always injured or sick at Christmas but have outdone myself this year!
I wish you all the best of health and happiness .